it's raining, it's pouring blessings...

just when i was looking outside the fence for "something new"

HE nudges me with a sweet, sweet blessing!

a time/chance to work normal hours again is amazing, Lord!

who would ever orchestrate things so gracefully other than YOU?!!

thank you, thank you, thank you!

fireproof

* photo taken from http://fireproofmymarriage.com/



Fireproof starring Kirk Cameron


ahhhh... so close to home,

the theme cut through my heart.

and so i cried, buckets of tears!!!

i highly recommend this movie to couples, un-couples and what have yous.

sorry state

i see how it is.

in my eyes, this is so difficult..

should i ignore the signs?

this is gettin' to be tiring.

impatience comin' in.

are you sure, Lord?

aahhhhhh...

how many times do i have to go through unbelief?

seeking for assurance, YOU reassuring me

and still i doubt.

forgive me, Lord.

i should be calling you Lord in anything, for everything, right?!!

86

a day to remember.

I miss you, Papa ko...

happy 25th anniversary, CCF!

Happy 25th Anniversary to CCF (Christ's Commission Fellowship) Live Worship Service at the Araneta Coliseum 10am and 3pm!

We are streaming the worship services live this afternoon 3pm at the Ramaida Centrum, Naga City!

Watch it live: http://www.ccf.org.ph/sunday-messages/live-service/

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!!!

His love...

it was a lazy Monday afternoon for me earlier. dark clouds loomed then rain fell. just the right mood to lull me to sleep but i managed to watch Sunday messages at the CCF website.


i can't help but share Pastor Peter Tanchi's words...
taken from the message "Love Fervently" May 3, 2009.

here goes:

the secret of love is not your love for God, it is His love for us.
we love because He first loved us. 1 jn 4:19

that is the motivation of the Christian life.

you need to grow in knowing how much Jesus loves you.
and when you know God loves you,
you learn to love him back,
you learn to love people.

that is the secret of holiness,
the secret of obedience,
the secret of loving one another.


you have never surrendered your life to him because you have never understood His love.

if you are not loving him, it's because you don't know His love.


the beginning of the Christian life is knowing God's love.

alinna faye is 1 year old!

the bundle of joy at home, our granddaughter (my oldest nephew's daughter)
turned 1 year old August 5, 2009 and her parents decided to have her baptized in Roman Catholic rites ;-( 3 days after her 1st birthday.

the little girl is just funny and smart, talkative for her age and easily memorizes things or words we teach her.

she keeps all of us entertained woohoooo!

Cory Aquino, unforgettable...

(photo from The Associated Press)


Corazon C. Aquino (Jan.25, 1933- Aug.1, 2009)


Nobody comes close to Cory Aquino as the Philippines' most loved and respected President.

She will always be a sweet reminder of what a gracious leader our country once had.

i am 40!

i'm officially 40 years old!

and so i thank:

my family...

old friends, new friends...

thank you all for loving me just as i am!

and to the ONE who never leaves me,

i owe everything to YOU, LORD!

thank you for my life,

as it comes... new every morning...

The old life is gone: a new life has begun!

can't let go?!!

i have nothing to say

except that i have kept this blog window open for hours already...

me and "bare-naked" staring at each other, in between me surfing other sites...

several times in the past i decided to close this blog,
for lack of interest to write, and it's just muffled silence for months...

but here i go again...

here, just here...

resurrection/easter sunday 2009

the week passed by in such a blur...

it was while watching tv patrol news last monday that i was somehow jolted out of my "memory gap" =-) ... hey, why are people crowding bus stations and airports?? holiday?? yep, it's holy week!!!

now, it's sunday... and i feel like i was not, still is not... in the swing of things...

feels like i should have somehow done some intense "day with my lord"...

hai... hai... hai... it's sad that i have work, work, work...

while people around me are in a holiday mood... kakainggit hehehe

well... as what charles stanley said:

What are you doing with the amazing message of God’s love? The commission to “go and make disciples” is meant to be an integral part of every believer’s life. We should share about Jesus while at home, at work, among friends, or pursuing hobbies. In other words, we are to celebrate Easter every day.

HAPPY RESURRECTION SUNDAY TO ALL! GOD LOVES YOU!

wednesday... holy week 2009

A crisis always reveals what is really inside.
What life does to us depends on what life finds in us.

Anything – any trial or pain – that drives us to God can be counted as a blessing.

Faith sees the storm as a chance for God to work in a new way.
Faith sees the darkness as an opportunity for His light to shine brighter.
Faith sees pain as an opportunity for God to comfort and encourage His precious child.

The next time the storm churns around you, step out of that rocking boat and walk by faith toward your waiting God.
He is alive!

= Mary Southerland

delete, trash, clear!

what's the use of having more than 1 personal email add?

that, i cannot explain. my best bet is, free emails abound so why not take advantage of the freebies?

aside from work emails, which i find tiresome to keep ;-)

i have 4 email adds.. 2 for yahoo, 2 for gmail.

i have grown attached to these email addresses that all these years, i kept them active, spam and all.

recently, i made it a point to clean the emails from each of the 4 mailboxes and wow, my eyes drooped and i almost got a headache from the task!

it took me weeks... and voila!

3 of the email adds are free from drafts, spam, even inbox!

yep, bye bye email memories...comedy, drama, whatever stuff there was, deleted!

the one closest to me (if there's such a thing) is now spic and span, contacts properly filed, inbox constantly refreshed!

hai, hai, hai... maginhawa sa pakiramdam ang no clutter... sa email man o sa totoong buhay!

choices...

"Every day offers a chance to choose
anger or understanding,
bitterness or acceptance,
darkness or light.
And the choices we make reveal the stuff we’re made of."
––Robin McGraw


real simple words i stumbled on, real difficult to deliver!
for a long time, bitterness took root in my heart from pain
caused by loved ones and strangers

but then... almost predictably, though in a slow fashion,
the heavy feeling was lifted up and away
i consciously grasped the nooks of my heart,
and it just wasn't there anymore.

the pain may never go away, but the bitterness, the unforgiveness is gone.

only by God's grace!

i heart naga ;-)

i've come to terms with naga city again... i don't go to the "centro" as much as i want to...(working at night derails any plan to stroll around the main streets)
but those times i get lucky enough to walk, i enjoy the sights... tricycles making a mad dash for passengers, cars and people are a confusing mix in the streets!

naga is a small place... aptly tagged as the heart of bikolandia...

after years of struggle, it's clear that this is home to me...
like a tiny heart, its beat is indispensable to my past, present, future!

am i back??

goodness! i can't believe it's been over a year that i last posted some nonsense stuff in here mwehehe...

been super low-techie during my break... over break!

yehey.... i'm back! i'm happy, happy, happy... start of nonsensical words to post... again! ;-D

october, october...

the month of october was...

new house! i'm back in evangelista st. makati city!!! it's a studio unit but quite spacious with its "mini-loft" naks.. feeling rockwell haha, dream on!!!
thanks so much to frankie dear... and of course, to Papa Junrie!!! =)

babyface concert! i didn't realize he's really good until he sang all his signature songs, i was delighted when he dished out his compositions for madonna, toni braxton, whitney houston etc, such a talented guy! and what's more, he looks like my nephew, Aron mwehehehehe =)
thanks to dearest Midge, you said it yourself, "ang ganda ng seats natin, bonggacious!

i miss blogging huhuhuwahhhhhhhhhhh

i'm so kawawa... no internet access at work???!!!

i miss IHG.... unlimited surfing at work!!!

i miss the patay gutom E-Masters!!!! =)

don moen's july 28 concert at the araneta was...

(pic taken from donmoen.com)

another assurance that God loves me =)

i consider myself so blessed when Don Moen performed for me on the night of my birthday hehehe

as a self-confessed s-l-o-w learner when it comes to spiritual matters... it's no surprise that it's only after a few days that i'm absorbing the messages God has for me as I turned 38.

my key takes on the concert???.... here...

1. Keep praying cuz God is listening... He never sleeps... He never slumbers!
(see "He Never Sleeps" lyrics below)

2. In the middle of a storm... when we feel the Lord is so far away... just trust Him!
(see "I Will Sing" lyrics below)

3. If you've come to the end of your abilities, you've run out of ideas... God will make a way!

(see "God Will Make A Way" lyrics below)

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- He Never Sleeps -
Claire Cloninger&Don Moen


When You've prayed every prayer that you know how to pray.
Just remember the Lord will hear and answer is on it's way.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.


And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him.


Do you feel that the Lord has forgotten your need.
Just remember that God is always working in ways you cannot see.
Our God is able. He is mighty. He is faithful.


And He never sleeps He never slumbers.
He never tires of hearing our prayer.
When we are weak He becomes stronger.
So rest in His love and cast all of your cares on Him.


I Will Sing

Lord You seem so far away. A million miles or more it feels today.
And though I haven't lost my faith, I must confess right now that it's hard for me to pray.
But I don't know what to say and I don't know where to start.
But as you give the grace with all that's in my heart.

I will sing.
I will praise even in my darkest time through the sorrow and the pain.
I will sing. I will praise.
Lift my hands to honor You because Your word is true. I will sing.

Lord is hard for me to see all the thought and plan You have for me.
But I will put my trust in You. Lord will meet Your guide to set me free.
But I don't know what to say and I don't know where to start.
But as you give the grace with all that's in my heart.

I will sing.
I will praise even in my darkest time through the sorrow and the pain.
I will sing. I will praise.
Lift my hands to honor You because Your word is true. I will sing.


God Will Make A Way

God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way.....
He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness
He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and earth will fade
But His Word will still remain
And He will do something new today

Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way...
He will make a way


Oh God will make a way
Where there seems to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for me
He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

With love and strength for each new day
He will make a way....
He will make a way

ganda points 4 me @ soms etc. etc.

sunday (July 22) was a busy day with CCF friends... we were at Rockwell, then dinner at Som's and coffee at The Fort...

and as the blog title suggests... this piece is a a narcissistic moment... pagbigyan ko naman ang sarili paminsan minsan =)


a staff member at Som's Noodle House ( a nice place with good thai food and frequented by CCF people )

"lagi rin po yun dito... SOBRAng layo naman sa itsura nyo,Ma'am...
ang ganda ganda nyo..."

the comment mattered to me... cuz it didn't come from a friend, but from a total stranger watching from the sidelines.

I'VE DECIDED TO "COMPILE" OR MOVE UP MY EARLIER RANTINGS ABT. SOMETHING THAT REALLY BUGS ME... SEE THE POSTS BELOW...

a meeting with "Her Royal Proudness"

weird weird weird...

had a weird day.
Spoke to somebody who I found really weird… in the sense that she’s totally detached from any point that would somehow bring her close to admitting she had wronged me.

Yeah, I know, I have no right to demand that she say sorry to me, I’m not God after all.

But I was looking for a hint of remorse… and there was zilch.

Do I believe everything she said? Of course not! She won’t even budge to admit she was not totally innocent… as if I don’t remember the past, noh??

she was...so full of herself...impeccably proud!

and again... weird! why? 'cuz she's no dummy naman siguro, and not that young naman... to not, as in NOT know that something doesn't seem right... i mean... no amount of justification would do if your conscience tugs at you, right? so sad pero some people may just simply be blinded... and far from being guilt stricken... hardened by the constant lies they make...

how dare you, how could you!

i want to know.

can a person's heart be as hard as a rock

that he/she is unable to feel a tug, a nudge

and somehow have a nagging intuition

that he/she is willfully causing too much pain

in the heart of another person???

i want to know.

how can you sleep in peace at night

with no remorse creeping into your heart

how do you shrug off the guilt

how can you even hope

that the passage of time would shed the sin

i want to know

what kind of a person are you?

ang kabit, bow! (a maldita post, BUT a super-edited version)

this is the "super-edited" version... i actually posted this last march '07.


spent time chatting it up with "catwoman lissie" and we had a blast!

our animated conversation revolved around our views on mistresses (with all the Kris-James talk abounding) and although the two of us do not have the same experience, or played the same role, our minds does meet somewhere along the way.

it's weird that even with the so-called modern times, there's always a stigma attached to the women who allow ( allow cuz it's ultimately their choice) themselves to be a mistress, much worse to be labeled "kabit". certainly, the reason lies in our innate sense of what's wrong or right.

on a personal note, i firmly say that a mistress can always say sorry but the proof of a "real sorry" is showing remorse to God, to the wife and to the families hurt by correcting the mistakes of the past.

(if it's still a continuing affair, wow, good luck... time's ticking against you! why wait until you're a burned out, blow-up mistress? ;-) *pun intended

well... if she cannot find it in her heart to own up to the pain and trouble she maliciously put upon the shoulders of a wife...

i wish she would just stop complicating things and settle on the basics...
the man is married, married, MARRIED!

is there anything more simple than that?

Dating a Married Man-Dr. Phil

Are you the "other woman?"

If you're involved with a married man, and you're waiting for your turn, it's time to re-evaluate your situation. Dr. Phil offers advice:

It's time to move forward.
If you're putting your life on hold for a married man, he's stolen not only your heart — he's stolen your brain!

No matter how you justify it, you are attacking his family unit.
Even if he is separated from his wife, that is their business and you are a threat to their marriage. You aren't welcome and you don't belong.

You may feel that he's your soul mate, but think again.
A real soul mate would not set you on the sidelines. He wouldn't allow it, let alone entice it.

Keep in mind that you only know what he tells you.
You already know that he's a liar because he's living a lie with his wife and children. How can you be sure whether you're the only "other woman" he has? Entertain the possibility that he is lying to you, and you are being used.

Think of his wife.
Is it fair to her? She's been married to him for however many years, cleaned up after him when he's sick, raised children with him, sacrificed with him, dealt with the "damn dailies," then you come in at the 11th hour and provide a contrast to that that's new and exciting and fun. You are intruding upon her turf. You are a trespasser. It is no different than being a thief in the night. It is no different than breaking into their house and stealing their things.

Even if your married man decided to leave his wife and family for you, that doesn't guarantee success.
Relationships born out of affairs survive less than 5 percent of the time. If he'll do it with you, he'll do it to you. If he's living this deception with you today, how could you ever trust him if you did get into a legitimate relationship with him?

Break off this relationship today.
You'll hurt, you'll feel broken-hearted, but you'll be better off. Take some time to get really clear with yourself about who you are and what you want. The most important relationship you'll ever have in this world is the one you have with yourself. And eventually, you'll fall in love again — with someone who's willing to make you first in his life.

-Dr.Phil-

i cry... again.

when it gets me down
it moves me to cry my heart out
to my God

i cry
in the stillness of the moment
i cry
in God's watchful eyes

then He breathes for me
when i cannot catch a single breath
then He lulls me to sleep

like a child clinging to her Father
i hold on tightly to His hand
to His promises

that His plans are to prosper me
not to harm me

time will come and
His glory is to be revealed
and i, His daughter
firmly hold on to the truth

that with Him
nothing is impossible

so i cry

and it's gonna be
hard enough
to move the heavens
strong enough
to move my mountains...

ouch, trials!

who would want to face trials anyway??? i wouldn't dare ask for it, i would gladly shout, "please spare me" everytime i see a hurdle coming my way. but even as i duck and scamper to avoid it, i really cannot... unless i'm not human, nyak! =)

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nice tagalog version this is:

Hindi lang ito, kundi sa paghihirap ay nagmamalaki rin tayo dahil alam nating ang paghihirap ay nagbubunga ng pagtitiis.
Ang pagtitiis ay nagbubunga ng magandang ugali at ang magandang ugali ay nagbubunga ng pag-asa.
Hindi tayo pinapahiya ng pag-asa sapagkat ang pag-ibig ng Diyos ay ibinuhos sa ating mga puso sa pamamagitan ng Banal na Espiritu na ipinagkaloob sa atin.

Mga Taga-Roma 5:3-5 (Ang Salita ng Diyos)

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We can rejoice, too, when we run into problems and trials, for we know that they help us develop endurance.
And endurance develops strength of character, and character strengthens our confident hope of salvation.
And this hope will not lead to disappointment. For we know how dearly God loves us, because he has given us the Holy Spirit to fill our hearts with his love.

Romans 5:3-5 (New Living Translation)

i miss/wab Papa... 7 yrs.and counting =)

letters to Papa... the 1st was an hour after he passed away.
the 2nd was the night of his funeral.
memories... memories...

Quarter to 2 AM, july 4, 2000

PA…

This is my first real taste of the unexpected. You’re sick, but in my mind, it’s just a passing thing. You’ve weathered difficult times in the past, your failing health is not so bad compared with the hard times you’ve gone through… but now…
You’re gone and I still can’t absorb the reality… you’re dead.

Dead is a word that’s just that… dead… death… farthest thing from my mind… but right this very minute it’s all there is to life… death is staring at me, right through my innermost being.

Pa, I don’t want you dead… your death caught me unexpectedly… I hate repeating the dead word but it’s a way of coming to terms with where you are now.

I just pray to the Lord that He keeps you close to His heart… to make you breathe LIFE forever.

I love you!

11:10 PM, Saturday, July 8, 2000

Pa, this is the first night of grappling with the painful reality I’ll never see you and hold you again in this life… not like the last time I was holding your hands in a strong grip… me reading the Bible, you gasping for breath… just minutes before you died.

Papa ko, nami-miss ta ka na. I don’t know how to go about this intense pain in my heart and mind.

training day

my batchmates and i capped the end of the 12-day Culture and Communication Training by heading off to Dencio's Grill at Paseo Center Ayala yesterday afternoon.

looking back, i knew i failed miserably on the final assessment but thanks to Nina, she took into consideration my earlier scores. if not, i might have been left crying huhuhuwahhhh =(

on monday, we're starting with the Product Training, the more serious stuff... 4 weeks at that!

i'm looking forward to the challenges ahead. as it is, all of us are simply awed by the fact that we really have a hard time understanding the Australian accent.

i just hope and pray for the best, help us Lord haha =)

i'm gonna work days! yihaaaaa =)

I feel a lot happier with the thought that I’m starting a new work schedule… as they say, I’m getting my life back after 3 years of graveyard shift. I’m definitely looking forward to my new job, new company… training’s all set for June 7, 6 AM! wow! this was my sked back at PNI and just an hour ahead from my MRT days =)

Oh, I’m a lot excited! And who do I have to thank for?... thanks, Lord!... you rock hehehehe =)

the story of us...

Stuffed myself with old and new movies Thursday, Friday and Saturday… uhm… cried at every possible tearjerker scene hehehehe, what’s new??? That’s just the way I enjoy movies… laughing and crying like crazy!

So touched with “The Story of Us”, Bruce Willis and Michelle Pfeiffer there, struggling with the realities of marriage. I have seen this film with Junrie years back but it hit me with a different tone now.

Well, we were then… and we are now…

Ben: My high was about you… tonight I saw myself through your eyes.
Katie (after a long stretch of words) : I say Chow Fun’s because…
I love you…

I like… bay-WALKING!

Wonderful time at Roxas Boulevard this morning… woke up at 4:00 AM, took a quick shower, boarded the bus to Metropoint Mall at Pasay (MRT doesn’t run till 5:30)... took the LRT to Pedro Gil, ordered coffee and hash brown at McDo to go… and walked to the Baywalk area.

Breakfast at the bay… I forced myself not to look at the murky waters below the spot I was slumped on… and focused on the far end… where the rowers on the boats gracefully push on, passing the ships peacefully anchored above…

All around me were men and women jogging, walking, talking, dancing (aerobic sessions, huh?)... I texted Joyce to tell her what I’m up to, where I’m at… adding that hunks are actually in this place mwehehehehe =)

The activity in the place was contagious… I had to stand up from my comfortable nook and walk around… and walk I did… all the way to the Harbour Square and to the CCP Complex, where the action was more alive… joggers, walkers, cyclists, various groups and varsity guys doing their exercise thing…

Whew… I sooo… have to go back on Saturday… with proper attire this time… sneakers and sweat pants so I can blend in… unnoticed… and if my guts can sustain me… dance my way around, too HA… HA!!! =)

ciao, IHG!

my last working day (errr... night) at the office...

sad... i'm gonna miss my friends here... in the past days, i keep dismissing comments about me leaving... i don't wanna delve into it much... cuz i'm gonna feel bad... only 2 months short of 3 years at IHG is a long time, enough to form strong bonds of friendship.

i still haven't written a "pamamaalam" to the E-Masters... i can't write it now, words are elusive at this point.

all i can ever think and write about is...

i'm gonna miss my friends here...

i feel a heavy heart =(

a song for worship

1 I look to the hills!
Where will I find help?

2It will come from the LORD,

who created the heavens

and the earth.

3The LORD is your protector,

and he won't go to sleep

or let you stumble.

4The protector of Israel

doesn't doze

or ever get drowsy.

5The LORD is your protector,

there at your right side

to shade you from the sun.

6You won't be harmed

by the sun during the day

or by the moon [a] at night.

7The LORD will protect you

and keep you safe

from all dangers.

8The LORD will protect you

now and always

wherever you go.

Psalm 121 (Contemporary English Version)

i wab... kapamilya visits!

summer of 2007 saw the comings and goings of my "kapamilya" from Naga to here in the big city. i had meaningful moments spent with my sister's family (the Felipes) , my brother's family (the Pabileñas)

my most recent kapamilya guest was my sister who gamely attended a special retreat at CCF, without any harrasment from me, huh?!

tally goes:
mama ( absent =(
nonoy and ate angie, aron, aneal, ace, alijah (5 out of 6 present)
matet and jess, jessa, justin, jea (perfect attendance!)
dada (single in status, growing double in size... present!)
papa Junrie ( depends on the mood, last check in date was may 22 mwehehehehe)

well... the only ones i have missed... and misses... Mama and Nonoy... i may be able to hug and kiss when i go home probably 1st week of June or 2nd week of July.

ahhhhh.... the sweet, soothing touch of family gives me such joy.... (baduy!) =)

What Pleases God - Psalm 50

*** my thoughts:
God doesn't need our sacrifices,our offerings...
what He wants is our thankulness and us, keeping our promises, our vows to Him...
He wants our obedience!

*** and... take note of His warning when we think He lets us get away with our mistakes...
verse 21 When you did all of this,
    I didn't say a word,
    and you thought,
    "God is just like us!"
    But now I will accuse you.


Psalm 50 (Contemporary English Version)

What Pleases God

 1From east to west,
   the powerful LORD God
   has been calling together
   everyone on earth.
  
2God shines brightly from Zion,
   the most beautiful city.
   
3Our God approaches,
   but not silently;
   a flaming fire comes first,
   and a storm surrounds him.

4God comes to judge his people.
   He shouts to the heavens
   and to the earth,

5"Call my followers together!
   They offered me a sacrifice,
   and we made an agreement."

6The heavens announce,
   "God is the judge,
   and he is always honest."

7My people, I am God!
   Israel, I am your God.
   Listen to my charges
   against you.

8Although you offer sacrifices
   and always bring gifts,

9I won't accept your offerings
   of bulls and goats.

10Every animal in the forest
   belongs to me,
   and so do the cattle
   on a thousand hills.

11I know all the birds
   in the mountains,
   and every wild creature
   is in my care.

12If I were hungry,
   I wouldn't tell you,
   because I own the world
   and everything in it.

13I don't eat the meat of bulls
   or drink the blood of goats.

14I am God Most High!
   The only sacrifice I want
   is for you to be thankful
   and to keep your word.

15Pray to me in time of trouble.
   I will rescue you,
   and you will honor me.

16But to the wicked I say:
   "You don't have the right
   to mention my laws
   or claim
   to keep our agreement!

17You refused correction
   and rejected my commands.

18You made friends
   with every crook you met,
   and you liked people who break
   their wedding vows.

19You talked only about violence
   and told nothing but lies;

20you sat around gossiping,
   ruining the reputation
   of your own relatives."

21When you did all of this,
   I didn't say a word,
   and you thought,
   "God is just like us!"
   But now I will accuse you.

22You have ignored me!
   So pay close attention
   or I will tear you apart,
   and no one can help you.

23The sacrifice that honors me
   is a thankful heart.
   Obey me, [a] and I, your God,
   will show my power to save.

may 14 elections

i did not go home to Naga to vote ;-(

but it seems i cast my vote anyways ;-)

my nephew aron texted me to say he's not interested in the process but if i want to, he can vote for my bets HA! HA!!!

so.... i gave him my list...

noynoy aquino, joker arroyo, kiko pangilinan, manny villar, ralph recto and miguel zubiri.

that's all the senatoriables that appeal to my senses.

i hope they all make it!

happy Mother's day!

(image taken from crosswalk.com)

to all mothers... esp. to my Mama Thelly ;-)

have a blessed Mother's day!

and to me?... Lord, ako man daw? hehehe...

as a preview, i was given a mom's day flower sa office...

well, well, well...

nancy drew the movie

(image taken from nancydrewmovie.warnerbros.com)

as my dear, young friends are all agog over spiderman 3 and impatiently waiting for pirates of the caribbean....

i'm secretly (hA!) waiting for the nancy drew movie hahahahahaaaaaaa

what can i do??? i'm 37! ... i grew up with nancy drew books ... for goodness' sake!

and besides... my love for reading i credit for the nancy drew series.

if not for the interest i had in her adventures, i would not have the

"you have a way with words" comment on my essays...

scribbled by a well-respected english prof back in

"Ar-neyow" de Naga ( another round of HA! HA! ) ;-)

i like... philippine tatler

(image taken from www.philtatler.com)

yes, the magazine! i've been a trash magnet for magazines since high school... large boxes of mags filled my room in naga and it was only recently that i disposed of it.

now, i guess i'm back on track with the phil.tatler... i like the articles, a little bit of everything.. fashion, business, travel, lifestyle... i learn from it and i gloss over the pages, really stylish!

ha! joyce would taunt me with the "i knew it" look ;-) she was kidding me about a job at the tatler... i dare not say what her "imaginations" of how i would fare goes ehehehe

long weekends-holidays sa 'Pinas

** from my 2007 inbox... deleted the 1st 2 holidays cuz' it's past the dates... thanks to the person who made the list ;-p


3. Independence Day Long Weekend.
Take advantage of June 9, Saturday to June 11, Monday (regular holiday in lieu of June
12). No need to take a vacation since this is a 3 day weekend. It starts to rain during
this time, but still a perfect time for the last minute summer getaway.

4. Ninoy Aquino Holiday.
August 21, is a special holiday which falls on a tuesday this year.
So you just need to file a leave on August 20, and you already have a 4 day weekend from August 18,
Saturday to August 21, Tuesday.
It is difficult to fly during this time since this is in the middle of typhoon season.
This is perfect time to start Surfing or White Water Rafting.

5. Halloween Vacation.
Yes, another 4 day weekend without taking a leave. November 1 (Thursday) All Saints' Day is a special holiday and November 2 (Friday) is a Special non-working day (Proc No. 1211). So, take advantage of the Cebu Pacific Crazy Fares during this time from Nov. 1, Thursday to November 4, Sunday. Yahoo!

6. Eidl Feitre or End of Ramadan.
This is usually in November but there is no date yet. Anybody knows when the end of Ramadan is this year?

7. Christmas Season 4 day Holiday .
December 24 (Monday) is declared as a Special non-working day (Proc No. 1211) and December 25 (Tuesday)
Christmas Day is a regular holiday. So similar to last year, we have a 4 day Christmas holiday from December 22, Saturday to
December 25, Tuesday.

8. New Year Holiday .
December 29, Saturday until January 1, Tuesday is another 4 day holiday weekend. It is best that you
just take a leave during the entire last week of December so enjoy an almost 12 day holiday!

tayong mga corrupt... election fever ito! ;-)

tayong mga ordinaryong mamamayan ng pilipinas often look at our government officials as corrupt men and women...
sadly, most of them are.

no wonder we all feel that our country is doomed, been that way for so long now that most of us leans toward apathy whenever talk comes around to what the future holds.

i definitely agree with spiritual leaders that we need a spiritual revival... strengthening our moral values...

no matter what political reforms are sought, brilliant leaders elected... if we all continue to rot inside, there would be nothing at all.

corruption is a disease of the heart. we are all guilty of this. we may think we are better than others but think again...

do you take a pen, a paper, small stuff from your office to your house? ( ako nag pi print ng kung anik anik sa office... yikes, i'm corrupt!)

do you feel that the allowance given to you on a company sponsored activity is yours for personal use?... do you twist and turn figures for the liquidation papers? ( di na kaya ng powers ko to! yikes... )

but... see? a sin is a sin... stealing 1 peso is the same as stealing 1,000 pesos!
pantay pantay lang kasalanan natin.. mas makapal nga lang yung mas malaking amount ang ninanakaw hehehehe

heinaku... magbago na tayong lahat, please!!!! kawawa naman ang future generations!

reminder lang... vote wisely sa may 11... di ko sure kung uuwi ako sa naga ;-(

may '07 elections coming up!... a funny story ;-)

***from my 2007 inbox

While walking down the street one day a Philippine senator is tragically hit by a truck and dies. His soul arrives in heaven and met by St. Peter at the entrance.

"Welcome to heaven," says St. Peter. "Before you settle in, it seems there is a problem. We seldom see a high official around these parts, you see, so we're not sure what to do with you."

"No problem, just let me in," says the man.

"Well, I'd like to, but I have orders from higher up. What we'll do is have you spend one day in hell and one in heaven.
Then you can choose where to spend eternity."

"Really, I've made up my mind. I want to be in heaven," says the senator.

"I'm sorry, but we have our rules."

And with that, St. Peter escorts him to the elevator and he goes down, down,down to hell. The doors open and he finds himself in the middle of a green golf course. In the distance is a clubhouse and standing in front of it are all his friends and other politicians who had worked with him.

Everyone is very happy and in evening dress. They run to greet him, shake his hand, and reminisce about the good times they had getting rich at the expense of the people. They play a friendly game golf and then dine on lobster, caviar and champagne.

Also present is the devil, who really is a very friendly guy who has a good time dancing and telling jokes. They are having such a good time that before he realizes it, it is time to go. Everyone gives him a hearty farewell and waves while the elevator rises ...

The elevator goes up, up, up and the door reopens on heaven where St. Peter is waiting for him, "Now it's time to visit heaven."

So, 24 hours pass with the senator joining a group of contented souls moving from cloud to cloud, playing the harp and singing. They have a good time and, before he realizes it, the 24 hours have gone by and St. Peter returns.

"Well, then, you've spent a day in hell and another in heaven. Now choose your eternity."

The senator reflects for a minute, then he answers: "Well, I would never have said it before, I mean heaven has been delightful, but I think I would be better off in hell."

So St. Peter escorts him to the elevator and he goes down, down, down to hell. Now the doors of the elevator open and he's in the middle of a barren land covered with waste and garbage. He sees all his friends, dressed in rags, picking up the trash and putting it in black bags as more trash falls from above.

The devil comes over to him and puts his arm around shoulders. "I don't understand," stammers the senator. "Yesterday I was here and there was a golf course and clubhouse, and we ate lobster and caviar, drank champagne, and danced and had a great time. Now there's just a wasteland full of garbage and my friends look miserable. What happened?"

The devil smiles at him and says, "Yesterday we were campaigning ......

TODAY, YOU VOTED."*

old job, new job

should i take a risk and jump ship from IHG to _ _ _ ????!!!

i say risk because...

there's absolutely nothing impressive with the pay and
the job is more difficult than what i do at IHG.

but...
seems like i have a lot to learn from the training... sounds exciting!
and... i get to work mostly dayshift... yahhhhhoooooooooooooo ;-D

aaarrrgggghhhhhhh....... i have until friday only to let them know if i'm interested in a job offer!

*** buti pa si alma, mukhang mabilis nagdesisyon about changing jobs... sigh.... (sabagay kung bossing ko ang boss nya, gudlak hehehe... 1 sigaw lang and i'm outta her sight! ;-)

WAKEBOARD IN CAMSUR!

To all sporty and not so sporty people...

CAMARINES SUR ROCKS!

WAKEBOARDING IS THE "FUN" THING TO DO IN CAMSUR!

take a peek at... this


*** my nieces had a blast here... i guess i'll just be starstruck if i was with them cuz celebrities are flocking to this place...
thanks to the goodlooking and hardworking Camarines Sur Governor LRay Villafuerte!



pic taken from the CWC website...please see the link above!

grace and truth

the other week in church, there was a teaching about being full of grace and truth.
what i remember most was Pastor Peter Tanchi's reminder to balance grace and truth
as he told the story of how Jesus dealt with the woman caught in adultery.
the people condemned the woman and wanted to stone her but Jesus said,
“He who is without sin among you, let him be the first to throw a stone at her.”
Jesus said to the woman, 'Woman, where are they? Did no one condemn you?'
She said, 'No one, Lord.'
And Jesus said, 'I do not condemn you, either.
BUT Jesus also said... Go. From now on sin no more'”.

*** Jesus forgives whatever sin we have in our life, but He also wants us to change.

i quote from the CCF chronicle...

On Grace:

Too much of grace without truth leads to deception and licentiousness.
People who buy the idea of too much grace with no grain of truth will go
right ahead committing sin without batting an eyelash, with the pretext
that it's quite alright to sin, because God will understand and God has already forgiven them.
Nothing can be farther from the truth.
True grace will never become permissive to the point of licentiousness.

On Truth:

Truth without grace leads to despair and legalism.
Too often, we become critical and judgmental, pointing out people's faults so pointedly
that they end up feeling hopelessly condemned.
So the Bible shows us how to balance 100% grace with 100% truth.

*** i'm so much guilty of unbalanced scales... i tend to go full blast on grace toward people that matter to me, but strong on truth only, for people that i don't care about.

for hurting spouses...

The disciples thought all hope was gone when Jesus was crucified.
No doubt someone was telling those first Christians to
"get on with your life,"
just as people are telling you to do.

An empty tomb bore testimony that the crucified Jesus was alive!
His empty tomb bears testimony that your dead-appearing marriage
is also alive.

Jesus is alive!
He alone is the One who forgives, forgets,
heals, and restores.
Blessed be His precious name.
May you call out to Him today.
=from charlyne cares=

*** are we like "doubting Thomas?"

Thomas said to him, "My Lord and my God!"
Then Jesus told him, "Because you have seen me, you have believed;
blessed are those who have not seen and yet have believed."(John 20:28-29)

salvation is for all!

Jesus died for our sins... please keep in mind that forgiveness is for all of us... every human being is sinful, there is none righteous... we only have to turn our eyes on Jesus and repent... He is always present, He hears our cries for salvation.

*****
if My people who are called by My name put away their pride and pray, and look for My face, and turn from their sinful ways, then I will hear from heaven. I will forgive their sin, and will heal their land.
Now My eyes will be open. And My ears will hear the prayer that is made in this place.

2 Chronicles 7:14-15 (New Life Version)

happy Resurrection Sunday!

(image taken from crosswalk.com)

black saturday

image taken from crosswalk.com

thoughts on a good friday

"i want you to show mercy, not offer sacrifices" from matthew 12:7

this is the verse that struck me as i read the bible today, a Good Friday.

He may want me to stop focusing on what i have given or offered but instead, start showing kindness toward an offender and other people He chooses to put in my path.

and to that, i have to say, "yes, Lord, give me the grace... please" ;-D

salcedo saturday market

of all the usual breakfast fares we have along ayala ave. and even roxas blvd. on saturday mornings, the saturday weekend market at salcedo village is the most interesting and i truly enjoy it every time.

quite a selection of food fare... my fave tuna belly and lechon tops the list... lechon baboy and baka, thai coffee with condensada, the fresh fruit juice and the vietnamese sapin sapin is a-ok, too... then there's the pasta deli with the french guy and i guess, his filipina wife... the pizza with an equally mestizo guy manning the stall... the korean food with the koreana girl who i think is more fit to sell beauty products than food...the paella, the barbeque, sweets and desserts abound, the assorted ulam carinderia style...

for us ever starving PG Emasters, (our term of endearment is patay gutom hehehe)... the parade of yummylicious food is sooooo tempting and makes us even more hungry we can't wait to zero in on our tummy's choice, sit down and attack!!!

for the "sosi" people in the nearby condos or villages, they stuff on fruits, veggies, fish... aside from having breakfast, of course.

we have this joke that the masa crowd (that's us) invades the sosi turf.. poor them hahaha... and we even get them to serve us when we buy from them... quite nice!

we frequent the place and we're still not crossing it out on our list, i guess... until we can't take the taste of the food there any longer. with plenty of choices, it may still be a long way off...

the place is so comfy.. and celebrity sightings is fun, too! i remember gloria diaz, hindy weber, raya mananquil, susan calo medina... well, most noteworthy for me is my dreamboat back in the cory administration, the uber cute and smart teddy boy locsin!

if you haven't been there, do visit on a saturday, 7 am to 2 pm at the Jaime Velasquez Park in Salcedo Village, Barangay Bel-Air. take a peek/bite at the foodstuff, fresh produce, even plants! it's worth your time!

where am i today?

You and I may have to walk through many afflictions in our Christian life,

but believers are "shielded by God's power" though faith in our Lord Jesus Christ.

In a Christian's life we each may go through sufferings, testings, afflictions and trials,

but our Lord is there to teach us His will and way in our life during that difficult time.

During these afflictions, you will see God's mercy, if you will seek God.

These trials may bring you back to your Lord God

as you may have walked away from Him

or possibly God is allowing you to go through a testing for a season.

Where are you today?

-from charlyne cares-

======

So be truly glad.

There is wonderful joy ahead, even though you have to endure many trials for a little while.

These trials will show that your faith is genuine.

It is being tested as fire tests and purifies gold—though your faith is far more precious than mere gold.

So when your faith remains strong through many trials, it will bring you much praise and glory and honor on the day

when Jesus Christ is revealed to the whole world.

-1 Peter 1:6-7 (New Living Translation)

enuf is enuf!

i say to myself.... STOP!

been in a bitchfest mania since sunday...

and i hate myself when i'm like that ;-(



THANK GOD, i'm back to normal!

so what if i cry?

i do cry, because i'm in touch with my emotions and i never run away from it.

i'd rather cry and face my problem head on than simply walk away,
leave unresolved issues,
in the hope that time will take care of it.

and so i cry...

because in every tear, there is strength to fight.

my soul is downcast

nag maldita ako yesterday and i feel bad.

i gave in to my impulse, to my anger, that i hit people with stones, figuratively.
i have valid reasons to do it, and in the past, others have prodded me to do much more...
but i can't... not because i do not have what it takes.
but because i'm such a coward when i think of God.

and so it happened... a burst of rage and my fiery words flew!
yes, this is not the first time, but it's such a shame
cuz i thought i was in control of my reactions by now,
since the root of my anger has been going on for so long...

i'm deeply troubled, because i know i have offended God,
and worse, i have confessed to Him that i feel sorry for losing my cool...
to Him alone.
as for the people concerned, i have no regrets.

and this is why my soul is downcast...
my head is bowed, my lids are lowered...
i'm too shamed right now to hold my face up to God.

i heart you, batanes ;-)

(isn't she such a charming lady? pic taken from www.photonski.com)

i was attracted to batanes when it was featured on a mel and jay episode about what... 8 or 10 years back???

... what struck me was the sheer beauty of the place and its people, the ivatans with their cute native hats. i was amazed at the stone houses and the fact that they can leave the doors open and take off! wow, with zero crime rate and less than 20,000 people, who would be susceptible to a heart attack hahaha

i've been wanting to visit, but the only open window to go is summer. and so summers came and went, it's 2007, still, no batanes for me ;-(

at one point, netnet and ninapot and me talked about going but so far, no solid plans yet. hey, zarahbabes! tara na!

... besides, i still have to save up for it, there's just so much expenses rearing its monstrous head on my finances, waaaaaahhhhhh ;-)

sige na nga, sa 2008 na lang!

a sweet story on married life ;-)

A couple had only been married for two weeks and the husband, although very much in love, couldn't wait to go out on the town and party with his old buddies.

So, he said to his new wife, "Honey, I'll be right back."

"Where are you going, Coochy Coo?" asked the wife.

"I'm going to the bar, Pretty Face," he answered. I'm going to have a beer."

The wife said, "You want a beer, my love?" She opened the door to the refrigerator and showed him 25 different kinds of beer, brands from 12 different countries: Germany , Holland , Japan , India , etc.

The husband didn't know what to do, and the only thing that he could think of saying was, "Yes, Lollipop... but at the bar... You know... they have frozen glasses... "

He didn't get to finish the sentence, because the wife interrupted him by saying, "You want a frozen glass, Puppy Face?" She took a huge beer mug out of the freezer, so frozen that she was getting chills just holding it.

The husband, looking a bit pale, said, "Yes, Tootsie Roll, but at the bar they have those hors d'oeuvres that are really delicious... I won't be long. I'll be right back. I promise. OK?"

"You want hors d'oeuvres, Poochie Pooh?" She opened the oven and took out 5 dishes of different hors d'oeuvres: chicken wings, pigs in blankets, mushroom caps, and little quiches.

"But my sweet honey... at the bar.... you know there's swearing, dirty words and all that..."

"You want dirty words, Cutie Pie? LISTEN UP CHICKEN SHIT! SIT YOUR ASS DOWN, SHUT THE HELL UP, DRINK YOUR BEER IN YOUR FROZEN MUG AND EAT YOUR HORS D'OEUVRES BECAUSE YOUR MARRIED ASS ISN'T GOING TO A DAMNED BAR! THAT SHIT IS OVER, GOT IT, JACKASS?"

and...they lived happily ever after. Isn't that a sweet story?

xmen

who would ever cry over an xmen movie? hahaha... who else but me? such a crybaby huh?

i got this trait from my late father... i remember, we would be glued on the tv and whenever my eyes fill with tears, i would take a peek at Papa from the corner of my eyes... sure enough, he's wiping tears underneath his eyeglasses hahaha....

i miss him ;-(

anyways, i was watching xmen the last stand on dvd the other morning and i shed tears over professor charles xavier's death...
i wanted to dye jean grey's hair purple in that scene! ggrrrr....

but i like wolverine, as always... and i like hugh jackman as wolverine... well, i like the guy, period!

as for bad boy magneto... he's charming as ever, simply because i can't take Gandalf off my mind when i see him.

herself...

i'm at a loss as to, what do i do when i see somebody so wallowing in herself?

yeah, she tries to amuse herself but all i see is a hollow space...

how can i ever, so gently... prick her bubble and diffuse the air of despondency she fills herself with?

sure, having a man to love and cuddle and share everything with is such a wonderful thing...

and i love that! a lot! ;-)

but then, i see that the longing for a man consumes her... and i sense her emptiness... and i'm bothered... and i'm sad... ;-(

things we learned from our parents, pinoy style

from my 2005 inbox- still doesn't fail to amuse me ;-D


1.      Si Inay, tinuruan niya ako HOW TO APPRECIATE A JOB WELL DONE.
"Kung kayong dalawa ay magpapatayan, doon kayo sa labas!

      Mga leche kayo, kalilinis ko lang ng bahay."

 

2.      Natuto ako ng RELIGION kay Itay.
"Kapag yang mantsa di natanggal sa carpet, magdasal ka na!"

 

3.      Kay Inay ako natuto ng LOGIC.
"Kaya ganyan, dahil sinabi ko."

 

4.      At kay Inay pa rin ako natuto MORE LOGIC.
"Kapag ikaw ay nalaglag diyan sa bubong, ako lang mag-isa ang manonood ng sine."

 

5.      Si Inay din ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang ibig sahibin ng IRONY.
"Sige ngumalngal ka pa at bibigyan talaga kita ng iiyakan mo!"

 

6.      Si Inay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung ano ang CONTORTIONISM.
"Tingnan mo nga yang dumi sa likod ng leeg mo, tignan mo!!!"

 

7.      Si Itay ang nagpaliwanag sa akin kung anong ibig sabihin ng STAMINA.
"Wag kang tatayo diyan hangga't di mo natatapos yang lahat ng pagkain mo!"

 

8.      At si Inay ang nagturo sa amin kung ano ang WEATHER.
"Lintek talaga kayo, ano ba itong kuwarto nyong magkapatid, parang dinaanan ng bagyo!"

 

9.      Ganito ang paliwanag sa akin ni Inay tungkol sa CIRCLE OF LIFE:
"Malandi kang bata ka, iniluwal kita sa mundong ito,
maari rin kitang alisin sa mundong ito."

 

10.     Kay Itay ako natuto kung ano ang BEHAVIOR MODIFICATION.
"Tumigil ka nga diyan! Huwag kang mag-inarte na parang Nanay mo!"

 

11.     Si Inay naman ang nagturo kung anong ibig sabihin ng GENETICS.
"Nagmana ka ngang talaga sa ama mong walanghiya!"

 

12.     Si Inay naman ang nagpaliwanag sa amin kung anong ibig sabihin ng ENVY.
"Maraming mga batang ulila sa magulang, di ba kayo nagpapasalamat at mayroon kayong magulang na tulad namin?"

 

13.     Si Itay naman ang nagturo sa akin ng ANTICIPATION.
"Sige kang bata ka, hintayin mong makarating tayo sa bahay!"


 

14.     At si Itay pa rin ang nagturo kay Kuya kung anong ibig sabihin ng RECEIVING.
"Uupakan kita pagdating natin sa bahay!"

 

15.     Si Inay naman ang nagturo sa akin kung ano ang HUMOR.
"Kapag naputol yang mga paa mo ng pinaglalaruan mong lawnmower, wag na wag kang tatakbo sa akin at lulumpuhin kita!"

 

16.     At ang pinakamahalaga sa lahat, natutunan ko kina Inay at Itay kung ano ang JUSTICE.
"Isang araw magkakaroon ka rin ng anak, tiyak maging
katulad mo at magiging pasakit din sa ulo!"

 

i like... alcohol

not alcoholic drinks, excuse me! but rubbing alcohol!

i have no particular preference although the best smelling one is the Cleene brand, really! my office friend Melissa swears to this brand and most people mistake the scent as that of a baby cologne. if i have to choose, i would opt for it but since i use alcohol to shower on just about anything, even to wipe my shoes clean, right down to the soles... might as well go for the least expensive ones!

as soon as i reach my post at work, i lather on alcohol on my mac and the entire space on my desk. i clean my hands with alcohol every so often when i feel i have made contact with something icky.

my officemates kid me that my desk would, in time, turn white with my daily ritual. well... soon after, my habit caught up with most of them anyways ;-D

(this trifle blabber is dedicated to... the mighty alcohol ehehehe)

thinking thoughts

it's an effortless thing to think of bad thoughts. when i wake up and i'm in such a bad mood, i just shun off everything cuz it's a bad day... when i'm too lazy to dress up for going out, i just pick whatever clothes i first take a hold of and wear it cuz it's a bad day... when my hair's all messed up with frizz, i simply tie it up in a bun cuz it's a bad hair day...

what i'm learning now is how much easier it is to think of good thoughts despite the hassles of daily life. it was a slow process to finally come to terms with the fact that whatever's on my mind rules me for the whole day, even for weeks... and if i refuse to control the waywardness of my thoughts, i'm in big trouble.

i now wake up without a frown, i rush to take a shower, get dressed, comb my hair, powder my face, curl my lashes, gloss my lips and off i go with just the right twitch of a smile... looking forward to be with office friends, unmindful of the night's work ahead.


*Christian brothers, keep your minds thinking about whatever is true, whatever is respected, whatever is right, whatever is pure, whatever can be loved, and whatever is well thought of. If there is anything good and worth giving thanks for, think about these things.
-Philippians 4:8 (New Life Version)

post valentine brouhaha

my niece sent me a message and she somehow resents the way her ex calls the new gf the same term of endearment he called her... posting messages he used to say to her...

well.. what can i say but... let it go! it's probably back breaking for most guys to think about a new expression or sweeping statement to impress a new dearie hahahaha.....

uhm, i had my share of this thing, too... some years ago...

imagine my line for him... "you are the air i breathe" finding it's way to something he posted online!

and the wistful thoughts i had, we had... like having a house with a spacious garden, me lying on a hammock outside, sunday lunch with the family, all the works!

what do you know... i read it all on a chat session they had!

... whhhoooaaaaaaaa.....very original, huh???

but as i told my niece.... hayaan mo na lang....

in my case.... the girlalu's declaration says it all...

their twisted dreams are all "suntok sa buwan" hanggang may jovy ... that's me!

and it still holds true... until...

forever, i guess! ... with the way things are going...

hay..... ang saya saya... makes me realize how true it is that God fights for me pala talaga ;-D

happy hearts day

(pic taken from crosscards.com)


it's Valentine's week!!!!

Valentine's Day is on Wednesday and it's a day of love for all of us.

first things first... the day is a wonderful reminder of the greatest love there is, God's love!

then on to other things...

the most celebrated love for Valentine's day is of course, the love between lovers... aw! aw! awww!

it really is a nice feeling to look at lovers in love, by this i mean, real lovers, no hitches ok? age doesn't matter but please... no messing up with people who are already taken! ;-D

a wonderful Valentine's Day ahead for people who love truly, madly, deeply!

and for the bitter people who dread or hate Valentine's.. (sorry joyce, you're just kidding, right mwehehehe???)... grow up! there' so much love in the world to give and receive if you'll just take your focus off your selfish, insecure "You"!

--- a reaction from joyce when i told her i'm dropping her name on the "bitter" list ...

"I think Valentine's is the most selfish holiday on the calendar. I mean, this day was supposedly for everyone who can love and be loved...and not just for lovers. But over the years this day has become an exclusive lovers' day! Huh, the evolution of this occassion can be traced to the businessmen who wanted some extra revenue. Notice that everything goes "so up" during February. Who would buy overpriced flowers, teddy bears, and chocolates in the first place? "

sya sya.... joyce.... bitter ka nga! pero ang mga taong nagpapaka bitter kuno... naghihintay lang yan na mapansin ng inaasam asam nila mwehehehee..... aminin! but in the meantime, bitter na muna! lab u jowes!

what a relief ;-D

"Don't be naive. Some people will impugn your motives, others will smear your reputation—just because you believe in me.

Don't be upset when they haul you before the civil authorities.

Without knowing it, they've done you—and me—a favor,

given you a platform for preaching the kingdom news!

And don't worry about what you'll say or how you'll say it.

The right words will be there; the Spirit of your Father will supply the words.

Matthew 10:19-20 (The Message)

salamat

thank you, Lord...
for yet another one of your provisions
that never fails to manifest
in my time of need! ;-D

==

Then call on me when you are in trouble,     
and I will rescue you,      
and you will give me glory.”

Psalm 50:15 (New Living Translation)

kapamilya

pic taken december 2006 at home in naga city

... where i spent the holidays and went back to my eating style of seafood diet (when i see food, i eat)

... whhhoooooaaa.. corny old joke, i know! ;-D

but it's what i did at home... meal time with my nephews is like bonding time with hungry athletes
and i felt the same hunger pangs every time!

small wonder my flabs were bulging under my slacks on my first day back in the office.

there's just nothing wonderful above having a home and a family...

except for... ( yeah... one day, God says I'll have it! .. wink, wink!!! )

sale at chocolate

breezed through the Chocolate Clothing Warehouse Sale in Pasig early this morning ( on it's first day huh?) with Joyce, the clothes cum-stalking-cum extra joss addict hahahaha.... (joke!)

she got 4 items, i think???!!!

i only had 1 Earth Angel knit top from among the clothes tagged with the ever attractive word "Sale"...

i liked the Mink jeans, both the pink and green ones but... horrors!!! ...

i can't zip the size 9 on my tiny waist hahahahaha.... size 10 above is out of stock... poor me!

jhen's wedding

saturday
january 13, 2007


it was such a blessing to be part of a milestone in jheny's life...

best wishes to jheny and yayie!

saturday club to mv doulus

January 21, Saturday morning... off i went to the South Harbor with friends Jowes, Lissie and Shirel...
we boarded (huh!) the world famous MV Doulus, the world's largest floating book fair.

most of the books for sale are inspirational, children's, arts, crafts, cooking... and there were plenty of bibles! it was a pity i have just bought a new bible the other weekend. but then, we had some pictures taken and for us, e-masters... a pic is always a consolation!

the heat was in full blast at roxas blvd. that day. it was expected, of course, as we were there noontime. ;-)

so... mall of asia beckoned for some cool airconditioned comfort.

we had yummy chinese food for lunch and the rest of the afternoon spent checking out the clothes and beauty stuff... lissie finally got her socks hahaha... and i got a cutie pajamas.

LOVE-the greatest of all!

( para sa akon na mga palangga sa buhay...
amo gayud ini an tunay na pagpalangga!)

Love - The Greatest Of All

1 I may be able to speak the languages of men and even of angels, but if I do not have love, it will sound like noisy brass.
2 If I have the gift of speaking God's Word and if I understand all secrets, but do not have love, I am nothing. If I know all things and if I have the gift of faith so I can move mountains, but do not have love, I am nothing.
3 If I give everything I have to feed poor people and if I give my body to be burned, but do not have love, it will not help me.
4 Love does not give up. Love is kind. Love is not jealous. Love does not put itself up as being important. Love has no pride.

5 Love does not do the wrong thing. Love never thinks of itself. Love does not get angry. Love does not remember the suffering that comes from being hurt by someone.
6 Love is not happy with sin. Love is happy with the truth.
7 Love takes everything that comes without giving up. Love believes all things. Love hopes for all things. Love keeps on in all things.

8 Love never comes to an end. The gift of speaking God's Word will come to an end. The gift of speaking in special sounds will be stopped. The gift of understanding will come to an end.
9 For we only know a part now, and we speak only a part.
10 When everything is perfect, then we will not need these gifts that are not perfect.

11 When I was a child, I spoke like a child. I thought like a child. I understood like a child. Now I am a man. I do not act like a child anymore.
12 Now that which we see is as if we were looking in a broken mirror. But then we will see everything. Now I know only a part. But then I will know everything in a perfect way. That is how God knows me right now.
13 And now we have these three: faith and hope and love, but the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13 (New Life Version)

humor for the soul

HUMOR FOR THE SOUL: LIFE EXPLAINED
Author Unknown

On the first day God created the dog. God said, "Sit all day by the
door of your house and bark at anyone who comes in or walks past. I will give you a life span of twenty years."

The dog said, "That's too long to be barking. Give me ten years and I'll give you back the other ten." So God agreed.

On the second day God created the monkey. God said, "Entertain people, do monkey tricks, make them laugh. I'll give you a twenty- year life span."

The monkey said, "How boring, monkey tricks for twenty years? I don't think so. Dog gave you back ten, so that's what I'll do too, okay?" And God agreed.

On the third day God created the cow. God said, "You must go to the field with the farmer all day long and suffer under the sun, have calves and give milk to support the farmer. I will give you a life span of sixty years."

The cow said, "That's kind of a tough life you want me to live for
sixty years. Let me have twenty and I'll give back the other forty."
And God agreed again.

On the forth day God created man. God said, "Eat, sleep, play, marry and enjoy your life. I'll give you twenty years."

Man said, "What? Only twenty years! Tell you what, I'll take my twenty, and the forty the cow gave back and the ten the monkey gave back and the ten the dog gave back, that makes eighty, okay?" "Okay," said God, "You've got a deal."

So that is why the first twenty years we eat, sleep, play, and enjoy ourselves; for the next forty years we slave in the sun to support our family; for the next ten years we do monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren; and for the last ten years we sit on the front porch and bark at everyone.

Life has now been explained to you. :)

(from my 2005 inbox ;-)

for busy bees

Satan called a worldwide convention of demons.

In his opening address he said,

"We can't keep Christians from going to church."

"We can't keep them from reading their Bibles and knowing the truth."

"We can't even keep them from forming an intimate relationship with their saviour."

"Once they gain that connection with Jesus, our power over them is broken."

"So let them go to their churches; let them have their covered dish dinners, BUT steal their time, so they don't have time to develop a relationship with Jesus Christ.."

"This is what I want you to do," said the devil:

"Distract them from gaining hold of their Saviour and maintaining that vital connection throughout their day!"

"How shall we do this?" his demons shouted.

"Keep them busy in the non-essentials of life and invent innumerable schemes to occupy their minds," he answered.

"Tempt them to spend, spend, spend, and borrow, borrow, borrow."

"Persuade the wives to go to work for long hours and the husbands to work 6-7 days each week, 10-12 hours a day, so they can afford their empty lifestyles."

"Keep them from spending time with their children."

"As their families fragment, soon, their homes will offer no escape from the pressures of work!"

"Over-stimulate their minds so that they cannot hear that still, small voice."

"Entice them to play the radio or cassette player whenever they drive." To keep the TV, VCR, CDs and their PCs going constantly in their home and see to it that every store and restaurant in the world plays non-biblical music constantly."

"This will jam their minds and break that union with Christ."

"Fill the coffee tables with magazines and newspapers."

"Pound their minds with the news 24 hours a day."

"Invade their driving moments with billboards."

"Flood their mailboxes with junk mail, mail order catalogs, sweepstakes, and every kind of newsletter and promotional offering free products, services and false hopes.."

"Keep skinny, beautiful models on the magazines and TV so their husbands will believe that outward beauty is what's important, and they'll become dissatisfied with their wives. "

"Keep the wives too tired to love their husbands at night."

"Give them headaches too! "

"If they don't give their husbands the love they need, they will begin to look elsewhere."

"That will fragment their families quickly!"

"Give them Santa Claus to distract them from teaching their children the real meaning of Christmas."

"Give them an Easter bunny so they won't talk about his resurrection and power over sin and death."

"Even in their recreation, let them be excessive."

"Have them return from their recreation exhausted."

"Keep them too busy to go out in nature and reflect on God's creation. Send them to amusement parks, sporting events, plays, concerts, and movies instead."

"Keep them busy, busy, busy!"

"And when they meet for spiritual fellowship, involve them in gossip and small talk so that they leave with troubled consciences."

"Crowd their lives with so many good causes they have no time to seek power from Jesus."

"Soon they will be working in their own strength, sacrificing their health and family for the good of the cause."

"It will work!"

"It will work!"

It was quite a plan!

The demons went eagerly to their assignments causing Christians everywhere to get busier and more rushed, going here and there.

Having little time for their God or their families.

Having no time to tell others about the power of Jesus to change lives.


I guess the question is, has the devil been successful in his schemes?


You be the judge!!!!!

(taken from my 2005 inbox ;-p )

for worry-warts

am i a little weird these days?!!

... there's something that i feel should bother me but it doesn't seem to do so... as of yet?!!

am i living in a dream world that i seem to be floating and detached from reality?!!

nah...

my take is...

i'm perfectly grounded!

... in God's love, that is!

i'm safely tucked under His wings of protection and those who oppose me would just have to throw their punches into...

thin air !!!


Don't fret or worry. Instead of worrying, pray.
Let petitions and praises shape your worries into prayers, letting God know your concerns.
Before you know it, a sense of God's wholeness, everything coming together for good, will come and settle you down.
It's wonderful what happens when Christ displaces worry at the center of your life.

Philippians 4:6-7 (The Message)

shoes, shoes, shoe-ses

these are my latest finds in the shoe haven that is.... MRT Shaw Station!

to date, i have bought 4 office shoes in this place, at a very tempting price of Php 250 each!

certainly, i advertise the tiangge stores at the MRT as often as i wear my treasures ;o)

and of course... my officemates are impressed! (esp. with the price hahaha)

flashback... time was when Papa and I raise our eyebrows everytime Mama buys her shoes by bulk... meaning, cheap shoes translates to more shoes!

how i used to think i was solely my father's daughter when it comes to shoes as i look up to him on his choice of shoes or slippers... not scrimping on your money if you want to have good quality shoes that can outlast the cheaper ones.

but now, i have become wiser... i have learned to mix my father and my mother's influence on the shoe matter... i would not hesitate to buy a relatively expensive shoe ( well, my Php 3,000+ Merrell shoes is still ok after 4 years!) or a lower priced one as long as i am convinced of its comfort, style and quality.

my heart sings praises

one of my favorite songs at CCF Sunday Worship... yes, I do swing and sing to it's cool, jazzy beat ;-)

My heart sings praises
Each time I say Your name
This love is deeper
Than simple words can say
You go before me
You make a perfect way
My one desire
Is to give You perfect praise

In my heart
You are the power
In my night
Never failing light
With every breath that I take
I'll declare the things You've done
In my mind
Mighty Overcomer
In my soul
The reason why
In my life
You are the fire that calls me on

God's love

God showed his love for us when he sent his only Son into the world to give us life.

Real love isn't our love for God, but his love for us.

God sent his Son to be the sacrifice by which our sins are forgiven.

Dear friends, since God loved us this much, we must love each other.

No one has ever seen God.

But if we love each other, God lives in us, and his love is truly in our hearts.

1 John 4:9-12 (Contemporary English Version)

keep your faith up!

(from Charlyne Cares)

Keep your eyes on Jesus.
Don't look at the blizzard outside of your home.
Your Lord will rescue you from all your troubles.
What can you do right now to help you through this difficult time?
I pray that you will ask for God's divine wisdom and guidance for your problems.
He has all the answers for you, if you will only seek His face every day.

"We live by faith, not by sight." 2 Corinthians 5:7

house musings

at home in naga over the holidays, i always find my mind wandering as i sit on the sofa alone.

for starters, my head brims with ideas on how to redesign the house to fit the present lifestyle of its occupants. i mentally make notes of how the rooms should be, divisions, bathrooms, furniture, all the works.

ahh... it's a wonderful feeling i have as i visualize how pretty and functional the house would be...

BUT... i have to rouse myself from the daydreams... there's just no money to spend for my plans.. ;o(

.... so i'm back ...


i look at the clutter around the house and wish that Mama would finally let me throw out all the old and dirty stuff i can put my hands on... wine bottles,itsy bitsy stuff given out on weddings, a few figurines, dusty cabinets, tables, old tv sets etc. etc. if only she would allow me to really clean the house, it would sit bare.

i don't really like having so many things for house decors... please save me the figurines or trinkets unless they function as a clock or whatever ... even as a child, i dislike them. i only have 2 silent pieces at my rented place here... a gazebo and a garden, only because i should have given them as an exchange gift but ended up keeping them for "senti" reasons.

over all, i want a house that's big in space, not really in terms of square meters but free space to romp around. i want a house that's close to being bare... no jars, lamps, or any of the clutter people use to beautify their houses... anything that gathers dust and adds hassle to cleaning, i see as trash. i can tolerate flowers and picture frames on the living room but that's about it.

on my living room, i just want a television set , a stereo and a comfy sofa... purr-fect!

sometimes...

the laughter amid the holiday excitement is punctuated by searing stabs of

"pagkamingaw sa palangga"

but then...

this season is not about me...

it's all about HIM

setting aside myself

to give HIM honor...

for all HE has done for us...

is not too big a hassle, right???

right!!!

so off i have to go... mingle with the crowds and celebrate HIS birth!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR JESUS! (pls.4giv my drama modes ;-D)

A Child Has Been Born

(image taken from http://www.sermons4kids.com)



A child has been born for us.
We have been given a son

who will be our ruler.

His names will be

Wonderful Advisor

and Mighty God,

Eternal Father

and Prince of Peace.

His power will never end;

peace will last forever.

He will rule David's kingdom

and make it grow strong.

He will always rule

with honesty and justice.

The LORD All-Powerful

will make certain

that all of this is done.

Isaiah 9:6-7 (Contemporary English Version)

HAVE A BLESSED CHRISTMAS!

(image taken from http://www.crosswalk.com)

habayanas daa!

(image taken from http://www.havaianas.com/)

my feet were sooo "abused" yesterday cuz i was busy busy busy walking around... yup, malling again... my fave and i like to think, healthy pastime... i was cramming for gifts that's why... it's my last weekend to shop.. i'll be home so sweet home in naga on saturday for the Christmas celebration.

and speaking of feet... what's the fuss, really, about havaianas??? when i passed by the shop at glorietta, somebody was manning the front door, obviously to control the crowd flow... wow! as small as the shop is, it's really full of people ogling over the flip flops that is... havaianas!

forgive me but i went in, just to satisfy my eyes... and yes, the pieces were cute and soft... and welcoming to my tired feet ;-)

okay... maybe it really is worth the price... ngex... but my kontrabida side nags me... it's still tsinelas, however sosyal flip flops sound hahahaha....

hhmmmm.. i think i'll buy 1 pair, just 1 ... (promise! ) when i get back from naga!

money talk!

the holiday season is a time of giving and... spending! lucky are the people who have much money to spend but for us, ordinaryong manggagawa ng bansang Pilipinas... we are blessed enough to see how swiftly our 13th month pay chases after the wind hahaha.....

i'm posting below a sound advice about money from past worship services we had at CCF St. Francis Square. let's all learn from it, okidoki???

here goes...

There are two basic principles we need to know: God owns everything; and man is a mere steward of all God-given resources. The following are some suggestions on how we can become better stewards:

1. Prepare a written budget. Don't we tend to forget and fail to follow through if it is only mental? The benefits of preparing a written budget, far outweigh the small inconveniences of having to attend to the nitty-gritty details of budgeting. Every single centavo gets accounted for. You are able to compare earnings with expenses, and know beforehand whether expenses will be greater than the earnings. This gives you the opportunity to adjust expenses accordingly and determine spending priorities. More importantly, budgeting makes you the master of your money instead of money mastering you. You don't ask where your money went, but you tell your money where to go.

2. Set aside money for emergencies. There's wisdom in saving for a rainy day. You'll never know what emergencies may arise. 5 to 10% of your income should be segregated, deposited in a separate bank account outside of general funds, to be touched only in case of emergency. It is best converted to a time deposit to yield higher interest earnings. Scrimping on the little vices like softdrinks, junk food and movies can also increase savings.

3. Avoid impulse buying. A comic character called “Cathy” commented that people have safari clothes that would never go near a jungle, aerobics footwear that will never set foot in an aerobics class, deep sea dive watches that will never taste water, four wheel drive vehicles that will never experience a hill, architectural magazines that we won't read because they are filled with furniture we don't like, and most of all, we have sophisticated software that are buried in our computers that no one knows how to operate. What better strategy to control the urge to go on buying sprees than to stay away from the malls! Disengage from the window shopping pastime. Avoid the rush to a store sale. Observe the “Delayed Action Formula” before making a purchase. God, our Financial Adviser is best consulted, so pray about it first. When tempted, flee!

4. Distinguish between needs and wants. How do you differentiate the essential necessities from the non-essential luxuries? A need is basic to daily survival, while a want is something that we can live without because it leans on the side of caprice. More than the things that money can buy, there is no other than God who can meet our needs and wants that go beyond the physical. Matthew 6:33 reminds us: “But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness; and all these things shall be added to you.”

5. Live on what God provides. Many people get into a financial mess because they try to keep up with the Joneses. The key to contentment is to live within your means. Not coveting what other people have should protect us from chasing after things that we cannot afford. This should teach us the value of frugality and the lesson of living a simple yet godly life. Counting our blessings is what we can learn from Philippians 4:11-12: “Not that I speak from want; for I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am. I know how to get along with humble means, and I also know how to live in prosperity; in any and every circumstance I have learned the secret of being filled and going hungry, both of having abundance and suffering need.”

6. Avoid incurring debt. Romans 13:8 admonishes: “Owe nothing to anyone,” the reason being that “the borrower becomes the lender's slave” (Proverbs 22:7). The credit card syndrome has put a lot of people deep into debt. Many have fallen into the self-indulgent lifestyle because of it. The convenience of buying without cash continues to entice. Pay cash as much as possible, using the credit option only for major purchases involving big amounts like major appliances and real estate property.

7. Avoid over-extended credit buying. Longer installment payment plans may appear light on the pocket, but when you compute compounded monthly interest rates, the amount can be astronomical. When availing credit facilities, however, pay the full amount when the billing arrives.

8. Pay your tithes. Malachi 3:8-10 provides the best argument for giving to God. "Will a man rob God? Yet you are robbing Me! But you say, 'How have we robbed Thee?' In tithes and offerings. You are cursed with a curse, for you are robbing Me, the whole nation of you! Bring the whole tithe into the storehouse, so that there may be food in My house, and test Me now in this, says the Lord of hosts, if I will not open for you the windows of heaven, and pour out for you a blessing until it overflows.” God will prove Himself faithful to those who faithfully abide by His command to tithe. He promises blessings beyond our imagination, for no one can ever outgive God. Not to tithe is to cheat or rob God. God does not need our money since He is the owner of all things. He gives to meet our needs and gives in excess so we can be of help to those who have less. “Instruct those who are rich in this present world not to be conceited or to fix their hope on the uncertainty of riches, but on God, who richly supplies us with all things to enjoy. Instruct them to do good, to be rich in good works, to be generous and ready to share,” 1 Timothy 6:17-18 exhorts. When we become instruments of God's blessing, we actually help expand God's kingdom.

IHG Xmas Party 2006

IHG Christmas Party
December 2, Grand Ballroom InterContinental Hotel





the fun was not so much the food or the party itself but simply being with the E-Masters Department... undoubtedly the best group within IHG Manila hahahaha... (ovkors, ovkors!)



i wasn't able to watch the start of the program... missed out on Ilai, Benedict and Ed as part of the Christmas Carol Contest, Grand Prize winners! Yes!

i had a view of the last number, though, Jace with his smooth street dancing moves!

and Ed, again! .... the tenor for a special song number!

not to feel bad... we clicked and posed and smiled the night away. E-Masters love the camera soooooo much! ;-)

the party ended up rather early so off we went for some nightcap at Eastwood in Libis.

psalm 139 (NIV)

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Psalm 139

For the director of music. Of David. A psalm.

1 O LORD, you have searched me
and you know me.
2 You know when I sit and when I rise;
you perceive my thoughts from afar.

3 You discern my going out and my lying down;
you are familiar with all my ways.

4 Before a word is on my tongue
you know it completely, O LORD.

5 You hem me in—behind and before;
you have laid your hand upon me.

6 Such knowledge is too wonderful for me,
too lofty for me to attain.

7 Where can I go from your Spirit?
Where can I flee from your presence?

8 If I go up to the heavens, you are there;
if I make my bed in the depths, [a] you are there.

9 If I rise on the wings of the dawn,
if I settle on the far side of the sea,

10 even there your hand will guide me,
your right hand will hold me fast.

11 If I say, "Surely the darkness will hide me
and the light become night around me,"

12 even the darkness will not be dark to you;
the night will shine like the day,
for darkness is as light to you.

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

17 How precious to [b] me are your thoughts, O God!
How vast is the sum of them!

18 Were I to count them,
they would outnumber the grains of sand.
When I awake,
I am still with you.

19 If only you would slay the wicked, O God!
Away from me, you bloodthirsty men!

20 They speak of you with evil intent;
your adversaries misuse your name.

21 Do I not hate those who hate you, O LORD,
and abhor those who rise up against you?

22 I have nothing but hatred for them;
I count them my enemies.

23 Search me, O God, and know my heart;
test me and know my anxious thoughts.

24 See if there is any offensive way in me,
and lead me in the way everlasting.

New International Version

typhoon reming

i woke up with a thud last thursday, november 30, 8:00 PM after i reached out to check the messages on my cellphone. my nephews' text messages sent at around 4:00 PM sounded urgent and desperate.

reming was battering my hometown naga city and neighboring areas in the bicol region at the time they texted me.

i tried to call their cellphones and the house phone but all lines were disconnected. finally, i was able to get through my brother-in-law's cell and he told me the rains and winds have stopped at around 8 PM but left so much damage to the city.

my mother's bedroom was badly beaten by the winds and several pieces of g.i. sheets were ripped from the roof while in my older sister's place, the fiber glass on the rooftop and all the shutters around the building was destroyed.

my sister-in-law who's staying at our house later recounted to me how strong the winds were... she was putting on nails on the main door, her hubby (my brother) and my 2 nephews (21 and 19) were pushing hard on the door but the wind was just barging in!

i thank God so much that He kept my family and loved ones safe. yes, the damage caused by reming would mean financial expenses but just the same, it's such a teeny weeny bit of discomfort compared to what bigger things we might have lost .

think hall full instead of half empty... right on!!!

my GOD is good... all the time!

after such a long time, i decided to update or make changes to this blog... what gives?? nothing... i just want to do it ! senseless but that's just it!



nothing much has changed in my life in the past year or so. i have the same family, God blesses me! ;-)

the same husband (with the same problems) God blesses us both! hahahaha...

the same job and also the same friends but with a sprinkling of new, interesting ones! God is soooo good to me!

hey, that''s it! that's the reason i have this desire to reactivate my blog! it's december, the month of remembering the birth of the world's Savior!

i want to give thanks to my Lord Jesus for His unending goodness in all aspects of my life... this life i live would be utter boredom for other people but this is my life, a gift from my God and i am just so thankful that He breathed life to someone as undeserving as me...

so......

i want to make use of this blogspot to share God's Word... in the simplest way i can... by posting Bible verses that i deem helpful in my life and hopefully, to people who would be led to this page.

ehem... meaning... i would be more open and give out this link to friends and strangers as well (!) i remember saying earlier i would someday post the link to this blog on my friendster account... well... this is it!

brave jovy! hahahaha... and i won't delete my earlier posts, those revealing melodramatic posts (kung nakakaintindi ka nin bikol) hahaha.... bravo jovitawitch!

now back to the Bible.. it holds so much wisdom and contrary to some people's view that it's a boring piece of literature, i urge you to read it.

snippets of wisdom abound in the Bible and it's amazing how the contents transcend time and place to fully connect to the reader within the present world we live in.

my God, my protector

Lord, you are my lawyer! Plead my case! For you have
redeemed my life. You have seen the wrong they have
done to me, LORD. Be my judge, and prove me right. You
have seen the plots my enemies have laid against me.

Lamentations 3:58-60

abs cbn witches and more...

the friends i met and kept from abs-cbn naga days...

thet the "drama queen" that keeps us hushed when she starts with her senti mode hehehehe

alms the silent "what is she up to... well, more of "what is she capable of"? harharhar

mayan the dedma girl, emotionally detached to our lovelife dramas but carefully treading the walk herself mwehehehehhe

we were the nice and naughty girls back then...

we all had our stories to tell... tears to shed... laughter to power up the TOC at work... hey hey... i miss my nook at the TOC... writing news stories while bantering with the tech guys... roje, benj, clavsy, harbeduds, samboy, doods, che, boboy, ruel, yam, fen, dadi gen, budoy... and tito rey!

i miss tatang elmer's frowns when i fail to write the news on time hahahaha....

i miss chatting with zars, ninapot, net, queen, lei and ate bel...

waaaaaahhhhhhh..... i miss you people!!!!!!!!!!

new house

new year, new house :-p


.... almost 2 months in the new house...

shel's THE GIVING TREE

Once there was a giving tree who loved a little boy.
And everyday the boy would come to play
Swinging from the branches, sleeping in the shade
Laughing all the summer’s hours away.
And so they love,
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

But soon the boy grew older and one day he came and said,
"Can you give me some money, tree, to buy something I’ve found?"
"I have no money," said the tree, "Just apples, twigs and leaves."
"But you can take my apples, boy, and sell them in the town."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

But soon again the boy came back and he said to the tree,
"I’m now a man and I must have a house that’s all my home."
"I can’t give you a house" he said, "The forest is my house."
"But you may cut my branches off and build yourself a home"
And so he did.
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

And time went by and the boy came back with sadness in his eyes.
"My life has turned so cold," he says, "and I need sunny days."
"I’ve nothing but my trunk," he says, "But you can cut it down
And build yourself a boat and sail away."
And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

And after years the boy came back, both of them were old.
"I really cannot help you if you ask for another gift."
"I’m nothing but an old stump now. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing more to give"
"I do not need very much now, just a quiet place to rest,"
The boy, he whispered, with a weary smile.
"Well", said the tree, "An old stump is still good for that."
"Come, boy", he said, "Sit down, sit down and rest a while."

And so he did and
Oh, the tree was happy.
Oh, the tree was glad.

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Mon 22 Aug, 2005 - 06:18

i'll always be your giving tree.... all my life...

And after years the boy came back, both of them were old.

"I really cannot help you if you ask for another gift."

"I’m nothing but an old stump now. I’m sorry but I’ve nothing more to give"

"I do not need very much now, just a quiet place to rest,"

The boy, he whispered, with a weary smile.

"Well", said the tree, "An old stump is still good for that."

"Come, boy", he said, "Sit down, sit down and rest a while."

And so he did and

Oh, the tree was happy.

Oh, the tree was glad.

my kenshin

after a long hiatus......"kenshin", my hero!

i've been to a low, low point...
a time when i was sure...
i may be dumped into a dark pit
but he won't even budge to lift a hand.

but it's funny how events have a way of turning things upside down
when you least expect it.

a few days ago, i needed help.

and i saw my hero in action !!!

it was unexpected...

and i'm totally thankful..

and me... feeling happy?!!!

... is an understatement!

our old nest

bye bye nest...

i miss my old nest...
the silent witness...
to the blissful...
the empty moments...
to everything !!!

my 3 adorable gurlzzzz...

my 3 adorable gurlzzzz...

i spent time in naga from easter sunday and a few days after that.... i felt so relaxed and stuffed myself not just with home cooked meals but with the fresh air of home.... aahhhh... comfortable living.... i do miss the feeling!

and i immersed myself with family... they're always with me whatever the tide...

this is a photo of my nieces, jessa, jea and alijah.... i love them sooo...

your "giving tree" loves you... from a distance...

ebey ko
Originally uploaded by silverbabe.

i have this deep longing to talk to you bebe.... and i just have no way to reach your heart... your soul... and i miss the connection... is it really lost now?

ebey.... hanggang ngonian, sa oroaldaw na pag-isip ko sa mga nangyayari sato, dai ko man giraray masimbag kung pano kita naka-abot sa sitwasyon tang ini...

anong nangyari ta nagka-arog kita kani?

padangaton ta bagang maray an kada saro?

dakulaon an pagsarig ko na an pagpadangat mo sako, mayong katapusan, na mayong makakakulog sako sa anuman na paagi hanggang buhay ka... na dai mo ako pababayaan dawa anong mangyari, na pu-protektahan mo ako sa gabos na tao, sa gabos na pangyayari....

... dawa sa sadiri mo mismo...

arog kayan bebe an pagtubod ko saimo, sa pagkatao mo, sa pagpadangat mo sako. kaya siguro dai nababawasan an kulog na namamate ko pag naiisip taka, kitang duwa asin kung pasaen na kaya an relasyon ta.


ngonian aram ko na...

... na sa kahaluyan kan paulit-ulit na panunumbat ko saimo... sa sobrang anggot ko sa mga ginibo asin ginigibo mo sakuya... na dawa mayo na kitang magigibo pareho.. na dai na maibabalik pa an mga tataramon, an mga aksyon na nakakulog nin sobra satong duwa...na dawa dai na pwedeng ibalik an pagpadangat asin oras na nawara...

... pwede man giraray ini mapanuan... nin mas hararom na pagpadangat... na makakayang paraon an kulog kan nakalipas...

kaya lang... aram kong sa ngonian, desidido ka ng magrayo sakuya, na mayo ka ng balak na purbaran na paraon an makanos na nakalipas ta...

kaya pinipirit ko naman na ilaog sa isip ko na dai mo na talaga ako padangat dawa kadikit... para dawa papano, maintindihan ko an mga desisyon mo.


pero dai ko man giraray mahali na magpangadyi sa Diyos... i always pray to God not to let you stray too far away from Him.... and that He take care of you the best way... and that He never take His eyes away from you...

yan na lang siguro an nagtatao sako nin kusog... an magsumbong Saiya pag nakukulugan na akong sobra sa mga ginigibo mo... pero pagkatapos kong maghibi Saiya, kasunod man giraray an maglambing na dai ako pabayaan, na dai ika pabayaan... na dai Nya tugutan na magkarayo na kita... na mag abot na an aldaw na magbalik ka na sako...na sana mag-abot an panahon na mahanap mo sa puso mo na mas maogma ka palan pag kaibanan mo ako... hahalaton ko an aldaw na yan, be...

yes... i still care for you... despite all the exchange of hurtful things and words... the events of the past...

dai naglilipas an sarong aldaw na dai ko ika iniisip, minamate sa puso ko...

sa mga aldaw na ini, sa kahaluyan na mayo ka... hagad ko Saiya, sa ngonian na mayo ka sa taid ko...sana maggibo Sya nin paagi na mamate mo man giraray an pagpadangat ko... sa kung anong paagi, dai ko po aram... basta...bahala na po Sya.

pag naisip mo ako be, sana magirumduman mo an pirmi kong pigtataram kadto pa... na mayo ng mapadangat saimo arog kan pagpadangat ko saimo... this i promise you from my heart... if there's gonna be one person/thing "constant" in your life, i'll claim that spot... i'll always be "the giving tree" in your life, all my life...

rah rah rah !!!

some things in my life may take me off course for a little while...
but i promised myself that i will be brave and strong...
for myself... for people who believe in me.

some people may go to great lengths to put me down...
even to the point of trying to take everything that's supposed to be mine...
with all selfishness and callousness they rally against me.

but i know myself fully...
my character will pull me through...
i dare these people who are vainly pushing heaven to settle on earth... to justify their actions.

i have opened my mind and my heart for my GOD to see.
as long as i'm confident i'm not messing up with innocent people's lives for my dark motives,
i will face my so-called enemies without fear.

and to lighten things up....
happy valentine's day to all lovers who loves true and pure! :-D

gutsy... ???... !!!

i've been toying with the idea of posting my blogspot link on my friendster account... for so many months now....

my private emotions are in here... although i don't write too often... every word here reflects my true, honest self... not even my close friends know about this page... but i don't mind if they stumble upon this. if they are my friends, they are my friends! no questions asked!

now i ask myself... am i gutsy enough to let people who know me just a tiny winy bit... read some, if not all... my bare-naked thoughts?!!

it's quite a different thing for strangers to read this... i'm thinkin' what the heck... they don't know me anyways.... but for acquaintances??!!!... well... they might not understand why i write stuff that's supposed to be buried deep in my closet, or in my diary... but hey! this is a diary, medyo high-tech lang.

whatever!!! there goes that word... an attitude i wanna force on myself... ehehehe....

yup... one of these days... this goes private... not much public.... if you get my flow!

as i lay me down...

Yahoo! Photos - Slide1
Originally uploaded by silverbabe.

.... one song i share with my friend thet... a tune we play over and over while writing news updates at the abs-cbn newsroom years ago... the song just came to mind this morning... and it's meaningful to me at this moment, enough for it to merit a space in my blogspot!... hmmm... i still feel good humming it in my mind...

here goes... as i lay me down by sophie hawkins...

It felt like spring time on this february morning
In a courtyard birds were singing your praise
I'm still recalling things you said to make me feel alright
I carried them with me today
Now

As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy

I wonder why I feel so high
Though I am not above the sorrow
Heavy hearted
Till you call my name
And it sounds like church bells

Or the whistle of a train
On a summer evening
I'll run to meet you
Barefoot barely breathing

As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy
Oh darlin'

As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy

It's not too near for me
Like a flower I need the rain
Though it's not clear to me
Every season has it's change
And I will see you
When the sun comes out again

As I lay me down to sleep
This I pray
That you will hold me dear
Though I'm far away
I'll whisper your name into the sky
And I will wake up happy

When the sun comes out again
I will wake up happy
This I pray